EXPLODE!!!!!!!!

我快发疯了
衰事一单接一单
真的你他妈的！！！！
MCB！！！！
死马来X！
你是第一天驾车啊？
停在人家的屋外就算了，
还有停到这样‘美’
撞到一点就说cat balik
我很想回你！
maicibai！cat lan ar,sikit pun nak cat!
害我爸赔150，
头头还要200的！
我还中念一整天！
如果能的话，我不想驾车了。
我甘愿驾摩托，骑脚踏车。
被撞也不是损失财物。
每个人都会问你有事吗？
只有你们会问，车有事吗？
我说我赔，你却说你一个月薪水多少？千多块啊？
讲一下也不能，脾气暴躁到死。
我不想会任何一句，因为我一定会骂出口！
我也是跟爸学的脾气。
看这个blog的人请不要问我发生什么事！
我现在很火大！
心情特别差，只想一个人！
对于父母，我只能道歉，我不能控制自己的脾气。
说真的，我要的是你们的关心，而不是因为赔钱而骂我。
如果真的是钱的问题，那我宁可驾摩托，踏脚车，甚至走路。。。

这一切又能怪谁，错在我，我却不承认
硬是推到别人身上。
我不要这样子的我
为什么会这样
要怎样才改的掉。。。
我真的爆发了！

时间到了。。。

之前写过一篇‘time is needed’
对，现在时间到了。
我很犯贱，一次又一次的去找他，不肯放手
原因很简单，因为我还爱着他。
他终于说出口，他喜欢她。
我只能告诉他，她不会选你，因为她已经有了男友，而你是个什么都没有的人
我想起我们的一切一切。
你从不对我温柔，但你很体贴。
你对他很温柔，也很体贴，
但我知道那不是真的你。
或许在他人眼里，我还在欺骗自己。
现在的我并没有，我只是在坦诚我爱的是你。
时间已到了，我累了，伤了，
执着的手终于开始松了，
是不是想开了？或许。。。
我最近一直找你吵架因为我想让你骂我
好让我死心，你叫我不要再叫你dear。。。
这一点对我来说有点难，因为习惯了。
我不曾叫过你的名字，所以同样的，我不能习惯不叫你dear
最好的方法是不找你，我就不会这样叫你。
在爱情里的人都是笨的，明知道他在骗你
你还是要进去，不肯放手。
现在的我终于想通了，我有一班的姐妹为我心疼
为什么我还要一个不会为我心疼的人来伤我呢？
呵呵。。。我的妹妹。。。真的谢谢你。
我会放下他，但不会忘了他，因为他教会了我很多东西
在这段爱情里成长了不少
是你的就是你的，不是你的就不是你的
如今，他已经不再属于我的
我要把它丢掉，所谓：‘旧的不去，新的不来’
哈哈哈，我要快乐！！！

my LEGs almost broken liao.....

hoho....the story began like this...
once upon a time............stop!!!!
sot jor,haha~
last weekend went for 'walk walk', den today working.
made me tired like a hell!
erm, i had a nice memoriesssss with all of my sisters and darling, hoho~
appreciate them la~
on the 1st day, we depart early in d morning...
after tat shopping...walao eh!!!i spent almost half of my pocket money on the 1st day~
bought sum cloths and cosmetic~
the most satisfied thing i had bought is......my new WALLET!!!!!
finally, i found u~

it looks like male wallet isn't it?

haha, actually it is unisex de, i had planned to buy for sum1 too,

but my sister told me dun waste money on him, so i din buy lo~

hmmm....we shopping vf Wanjo , after tat she fetch us back to JOJO's house....

bath den went out again...

according to them, i am the most slow among them, 

haiz...u tot i wan meh?

i nid more time to wash my body becoz my body surface more bigger than yours ma...

after that we go to Batu Feringgi, fetch Hooi bac to her dear home.

before that, we went to sea side restaurant， they had ordered sum beers but i din order anythg.

my stomach was uncomfortable....

so i kept  on closing my mouth...[silent]haha

we back home after that.

let me show u my sister LONG+ WHITE LEGS~

LONG leh?haha~her ambition WAS stewardess, but unfortunately, 

she met an accident last year, her leg got a big scar...

hope she wont give up for that.

next day, we went to the same place against...

we went to SEOUL GARDEN use our lunch...

i love the black pepper flavor and coffee flavor...

damn nice la d taste!!!!

den we went walk walk again,haha~

planned to sing K, but fulled of ppl...

nvm~we went for movie pula ,

watched 'what women want'

a pig sat beside of me slept during the movie on showing.

this movie not so nice la, but sum of the that really showed wat men want...haha

den we back home by taxi...it was heavy raining on the way we back...

asked my darling hang out vf us, haha...and a mystery guy came for gave sum1 flowers~

haha, after tat~no place to go,

so we went to 1st avenue,sing K...

spent a lot of money against~haha

thx my sister sang a song called' 第二次分手‘

felt like wana cry...the song really suit to me...haha

sum1 drunk but still wan to follow us.

after that i asked my darling fetch us at jojo hs...

we went to McD. ate our breakfast...haha...in the morning 4 a.m

then sat at sea side, the wind blowing is smelly la~yiak!

went to Gurney, coz sum of us wan pang sai...

we were lying at Gurney plaza untill 6 sumthg juz back to jojo hs.

bathing, packing our cloths, after that asked my darling fetch them to jetty.

tis nite, he did a lot of funny thgs, made us keep laughing~haha

den, he sent me back to jojo hs...

damn tired~slept until jojo step in her room,i juz wake up.

i continue sleeping coz my eyes cant open~haha

afternoon, Ah Zhong fetched us went to straight quay to use our lunch.

walked into a restaurant called 'Hisago', high class la~the food damn expensive~

tis was d food i ordered.

damn damn damn NICE!!!!!!

cant imaging that the taste would be like that!

after lunch, we went to 1st avenue to watch movie...

'Mr & Mrs Incredible'

funny movie~hahaa~~~

that Jojo keep hugging me~geli nia!!!

after that~i back to Kangar vf Zhong.

he drove about 140-170km/hr on d high way~

but i still can sleep~haha

we stopped at kedah to use our dinner~

a simple noodles + wan tan + cha shao + vegetables.

waw! against~it made me surprise!

d cha shao very very delicious la!!!

2 ppl ate almost RM20++.

but it is worth to be!

reach home about 10pm....

my bone almost broken liao~haha

morning~

GUD morning my fren~
very hard to believe i can wake up so early leh~
sumore today is weekend!hoho
I woke up at 7am actually, slept for 12 hrs dy~
now, feel sleepy pula~haha
last nite sms vf my sister, bout very sory coz i was sleeping tat time.
so cant chat with u. congratulation ya~
my sis met her BF's parents~
all she worried about did not happen~
erm~ nx time u can go his hs ~
u can drink ur favorite soup liao~

talk bout me,tis few days miss him a lot.
miss a guy tat i loved but no worth i do so...
but i really wonder y i still keep on doing tat thg...
nevermind la...
i will forget him soon~
no, not forget...
juz put down everythg i care about him..
time....please help me ya~
i know u r d best~hihi
sot jor!

TimE iS nEEdeD

Thx my dear fren.
u r really know me well.
like wat u said, I am woman[ lady more suit i think],haha
i am stubborn with the one i love even he was changing.
I jealous the girl, i wont deny it.
she is so lucky. but wat i wana say at here is i just want to love him.
but seem like i used  the wrong way n made all of us unhappy
i am suffer on this. he was the first i loved .
i know u will say, u r still young, u will meet a better guy next time.
i agree but now, i just want to love him.
sorry for make u worry about me,
i know i am lying myself and damn stupid.
i asked him , who i am for u?
he told me, u r my very best fren.
on tat moment, i heard my heart 'bleeding'...
i know it is the time i give up on him.
i have promise myself, if sumday i am still a single, n he wana recover bac with me
i will accept if tat moment i still love him.
beside tat, i will reject or ignore.
after i hd cried for last whole nite, my heart feeling better now.
but tis morning, my eyes damn pain la! ish~~~~
shouldn't cry de~how stupid i was.
fool by him. but i willing accept all.
i need some time, n tis time, i cant repeat again.
that y i did everything he dislike to make him hate me,
den we wont hv any relationship in future.
am i right?making him hate me, but it will be fine soon.
i will back to the happy 'lady' soon!
wait for me my sun~i dislike raining day!
^^

HEart BroKeN

tis year really make me sad....

a lot of  bad news from him...

ya,he was inside the above pictures~

i met him since i was secondary school.

i did not know him even we were in the same school for 2 years and more.

i knew this guy since i joined HIP HOP CLUB.

it was meaningful for me.

in these 20 years i live ,he was the one went inside my heart.

how sweet he was when we were couple~

he did everythg for me but sumtym he really sui ~

these were not effected at all.

sumtym, he was sweet, sumtym, he was hurting  me.

but i do love him more than i can say.

but this made my heart broken.

at his house, we r still same like b4.

but when we go outside, we r just friend.

since 2 july 2010 we broke up, we nvr cover back even he was chasing me back.

but now, it is almost half year past. he fall in love with another girl.

the girl dy hd bf, but she still have an ambiguous relationship with my lovely ex-bf.

he  deny tis in front of me.

but when i saw his hp, the truth was hurting me.

i cant stop think about this~

why it would happened?

this is the end of waiting for me to back to him.

when i leave, he said 'i will waiting for u.'

i din trust wat he said.

but now, when i turned back, i saw his heart had another girl.

tis is fake...

is time to let u go although i love u.

i am really very very very love u.

it cant be describe by words.

hope u will remember me in your future

QYP...

CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!

hoho~time past very fast than i tot leh~
now ady 20 years old!!!wth!!!!
but tis cny really unforgetable~
go shooting at k.p, watch 3 movies continuously~~
lie a little cute boy--Gordon ~~~really bad hor tat ho liu yee~
hihihihi~~~~
well~i plan to have a gathering but due to some of them cant attend, so i have to cancel it~~
but luckily the SON OF GOD asked we came out b4 cny~
erm~let me start vf photo shooting la~
actually tat day i din mean go to k.p de, i juz brought my bro's camera to practice~
den Yee suggest we go shooting today~den we were searching for the place,
we found a place not bad for photo shooting~
at first, they all really making me 87 coz paiseh,especially for d red cloths 1~
but after that~their pattern all came out~haha
until sum1 shoes 'flying'~haha
capture until d camera was low battery we juz went bac~
for d nite, we went to Yee's hs~
using her laptop to search sum info we nid~
i heard tat a 'stupid' exchange her new hp to a old model 1~
unworthy la~d nx day~we go tat stupid hs~den went to sing K~ VIP ROOM for 3 person only~
after tat went to ma ex bf hs~
i saw his sister baby~cute lo~~~
her eyes damn big n she will smile when she c her mum~
her bro oso cute~ he really believed tat we will fetch him to kfc~ haha
nx day~early in d morning~we went to JITRA MALL watch movies~
tis is d 1st time~
really long time no watch liao,but now watch 3 movies continuously~
walao eh~~~~~
but all movies very nice la...
funny + touch....
hmmm....~
tat all la~haha