恭喜我也恭喜你

各位乡亲父老，叔伯兄弟
快来恭喜我呗~
我做到了！我成功的放下他了！
哈哈哈~想不到我也能做到。。
不在有怨恨，不在有想打人的感觉
这种感觉真美好~感觉松了不少。。。
最近发生了很多奇怪的事~
怎么说呢？
就突然间跟一个原本没有交集的人熟了起来
不过也没有很熟啦~
哈哈哈哈
就是突然间就对了
然后。。。我竟然抽了不少烟。。。
唉~失败了~打破我不抽烟的记录了
哈哈哈
再来，听到一位朋友有喜啦！
明年准备生龙子~哈哈哈
他们已经注册了~3月结婚~
还叫我去当姐妹玩新郎们~
但必须逃课一天~
能吗不懂~
怎样都好~恭喜就对了！！！！
最近身边的朋友都桃花运旺盛啊！
就只有我~
但我妈实在太好笑了！
之前做伴娘时，
我妈说：‘你确定你要做伴娘？桃花运会降低的！’
我说：‘没差啦~’
可是hor，他又会挑说我男友这个不好那个不好~
然后每次又喜欢问我，你有男朋友了吗？
矛盾！！！！哈哈哈哈
或者是，你还跟某某走吗？哈哈哈哈
无言啊我的娘！哈哈哈哈

Midnite

Suddenly feels like wana write a post,
Juz now listen to a song names "someone like you"
D lyrics make me cry,coz it really suit to my situation
Thx for HLY introduced.
Well,he was the past
I should go on but not stop n waiting at here
I understand but I couldnt make it
Suffer when I look at him
Unfriend him but he added me as friend again
Not willing to c him
Juz now fatty told me he will not going to mois
I felt great,coz I can enjoy without him
Last nite heard fatty said he wana bring along his gf go clubbing
I really angry,y he wana do that if he knows that I am going too?!!
But luckily,his gf is not allow to enter d club.n he is not going too
Sometimes I think he is my nightmare
But how I going to solve those problems?
I hate it,never felt this way before
Suck!!!!

蜕变中。。。

最近忙着考试，但脑里依然想着他
他有女友了，两人还很恩爱
我像一只被抛弃的洋娃娃
什么也不能做的看着一切
爱他又如何？
放不下又如何？
日子依然要过
心还会痛
但也许是不甘心
不甘心我付出了一切换来的是心碎
很想像戏里的坏女人去破坏他们
哈哈哈
傻了乜?
他不值得啊~
我不想糟蹋自己
我要活得有价值！
一切的堕落都过去了
不会像以前一样笨
不会再重复着以前的生活
若要我跟他接吻。。。
老实说，我吻不下了
倒不如叫我去问他女友还好过吻他
哈哈哈【冷笑。。】
若我真的伤心
我一定哭得出来
但我一滴眼泪都挤不出
因为麻木了
感情只剩下不甘心
不再是单纯的爱
那又何必呢，
对不对？
曾经我在我们朋友的车哭了
过后朋友来问我
发生了什么事？
我说你怎么也知道啊？【我静静的哭，没出声】
他说，眼睛瞎了才会不知道
但他。。。那个我曾经爱过的男人
 没反应。。。。
是好事还是坏事？
所以，我慢慢长大了
有时候真的很怀念以前在一起的时候
他对女友真的很好
但唯独我这个前女友。。。哈哈哈哈
算了呗~没事了~会过去的！
我要变成熟！！！！
不是外表，而是内在！哈哈哈

TRUE is the TRUTH

now, i am very DOWN...
COZ i know something that i dont willing to accept
but i cant do anything, coz it is happening
i really never though that he lies to me again!
start from now, i wont believe a single word from him
i think i have to do something that can stop my feeling
he is a good man when you are his gf
but he is a bad guy when you r nothing to him
ya, this is the truth...
just now i log in to his account, and i saw the conversation...
he has a girlfriend and looks like he really like her...
well, congratz and he success to hurt me again
but i think i wont hate him
coz hate means love
start from now..
i wont waiting for him anymore
i swear...[borrow from some1]
my heart is painful
but luckily...just for a while
GOOD BYE and good night~

faint,dizzy or pening~

cant describe it well, as the tittle, there is no more word can be use.
almost every week start from opening in this semester
quiz, test, assignment, quiz , test assignment and repeat again!
and the fact is....i dun even know what i am doing...
i don't understand what lecturer teaching,
i just copy from book or internet for the assignment
copy paste, quiz test=die
this is what i feel about.
die la like this way~3 more weeks to go~
final is coming~holidays is coming~new sem is coming too!haha
have to save money, go kampar find some one that i really miss!
go penang too!haha
bankrupt la!!!!
owh~~~~i bought a new spec!
finally.....i wore my old spec for 2-3 years dy~never change...
it followed me for a long time dy~
bought a new spec doesn't mean that i will throw away my old 1~
it has a invisible relationship between us...
hahahaha~what the hell of description...
well...u see how busy i am but i still going to clubbing~
followed T-rakmisu gang~they are really nice la~haha
funny some more....
erm~about me and my ex ex boy friend....
we are just friend but get along like couple~
hahaha~maybe it is a habituation~
but now i am trying to put him down...
hope some day i can archive~
owh~i am getting fat than before because really have no time to exercise~
OMG!!!
diet！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

a sad and terrible dream for me...

just now i took a nap
and i dream about him
i went to some place and met him coincidentally
something happened...i saw he hugged another girl and they looks like a couple
i was shock when i saw this
and i felt empty
suddenly a guy beside me embrace me and flirt me
and then walked to another place he couldn't see
after that he looked at me...
he said:'cry ba...'
and i really cried in his arm
same with  the reality
i want to cry even i was dreaming
i can't remember who was the guy who asked me cry
and i am appreciated because he lend me a shoulder
all i want is just to let him go away from my heart
it is suffering when you see the person you love is loving or kissing or hugging another girl...

all about HIM...

he is the one who take over almost 70% in my blog.
he is the one can make me fall in love with him
he is the one that i cant hate him even stop thinking of him
in reality, he is not a good guy when he is not your boyfriend
yes, we are still like a couple when i am in his house
but we are just friend.
this is the way he treat me.
when we are not hanging out together,he will ignore me...
how pity of me...hahaha
but actually i get myself into hot water....
i am willing to do so...
because my heart don't want to let him go...
last night chat with sisters....
they ask me don't do so
control myself...
i told them....
i am 'lonely'...get what i mean?haha
actually i also don't know what i want...
i asked him
'do you fall in love with another girl?'
'do you have a girlfriend?'
'are you not loving me?'
all his answers are 'no/not'
i asked him to be my boyfriend like before
but he decline...
but there is something wrong with my feeling...
i am not angry like before after i came back from his house
we were not arguing like before
maybe the feeling is become cooler and cooler than before...
it just maybe....
recently...i am getting fat like before....
but start from two days ago, me and my dear roomate went to walk around inside POLI
hope i can maintenance and diet...
LOOI SAIK WOEN....
YOU ARE FAT!!!

Flood at QYP's house~

this morning i went to his house.
and then suddenly rain heavily.
there was only a few hours to take their house getting flood.
1pm, the water is on my toes.
3pm, the water is under my knee..
i helped his mum to pick up their things and look after Shermaine
damn cute!!!haha~but i didn't take her picture~
my arms quite tire and pain because i bring her to everywhere~
dying~~~~X.X
busy for whole day~really tire and sleepy~

1pm

3pm

holidays ended~

time past fast like a hell!
in these few days, i really don't know what have i done~
just enjoyed the moment with HO LIU YEE, YEOW JIA HOOI, LIU YIE XIAN & LIM YI CHUN
five of us are too free~haha~
we played POOL~
ate somtam~
ate cendol~
cut hair~
someone spem her hair~
went for party~
sang K~
and finally~all money were gone~~hahahaha
last night just me and liu yee nia~
i think both of us always free 1~
i fetch her home after the party and then went out again with my ex bf~
i can't deny that i still love him~
haiz~how damn i am~
find something to make me suffer~
what the fuck!
but i really enjoy when i hang out with his friends~
just like our gang~ never stop making funny thing and talking to make us laugh~
last night one of his friend throw a can of beer on me~
and his fate was got 3 to 5 cans throw by me!
as i said:‘有仇不报，非君子也！’
haha!after that we back and on the way to ARAU, i got my brother called~
he was reached at bus station~so ping and me went picked up him~
there was something happened.
he kissed me~
but not long long 1~hahaha~don't misunderstand ya~
i don't know what does it means or maybe it doesn't mean anything.
hope it will not changing anything...haha~
i know there is only a few people will read my blog,and all these people are close with me~
my sister lo~hahaha
i don't know how to tell you,
so i am using this way to tell you.
although this is just a little thing but i want to share everything with you.
owh ya~little GORDON boy kissed me too!!!!love him so much!!!
at the end,i want to thanks jojo for bought me taoke noi ~haha

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freind+Best friend+SISter

yeah yeah yeah~~~
wana shout out my feeling~~~
beside happy~there have a little sadness~
because they are going back soon~
now my activity is only gathering~
really duno what can i do beside that~
hmmm....sumore hor~ perlis really no place to lepak 1~
haiz~~~every time hang out, there must have a question~
'Want go where?'
hahahha~duno la~~~~
nice to c them all~
appreciate  god let me know them~
and i want it keep on moving forever
LOVE YOU all.............
long time didn't sing k with them~
last nite we all shouted like crazy~haha
i think i am really addicted to clubbing already~
next time will go again~but don't know when ~
bankrupt some more~hahahaa~
kaolat lo~
now my target is...
DIET!
SAVE MONEY!
TRAVEL!
should not go club often~
sad~~~~haha
❤

never been normal before~XD

我挺你！

第一句还是要说
恭喜你拉~
虽然这是你不想要的
但他依然是个喜事
你之前的决定真的都让我们心疼
心疼你自己一个人辛苦而我们爱莫能助
因为不想看到你摄入危险
只能选择不挺你
这真的很抱歉
我不想看到事后你衰弱的样子
你一直是我姐妹当中最活泼的一个
我们还要一起旅行，吃，喝，玩，乐
我认为我生命真的不能少了你！
这是真的。。。
做什么我都第一个想起你
虽然我不懂你是否也一样
但你总能让我笑，让我忧
我要当他K.M!!!
送他一份礼物。。。
想送贵重的却没能力
但我和涵已经plan了~哈哈
假期开始咯~等你回来~
等我sembreak再上去找你哦!
留个空位让我睡~哈哈
我爱你！

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this few days...we were no contact with each other.
but i really felt nothing even he didn't text or call me.
i still remember what had i told Beh in clubbing when he was hugging me...
i said' no feeling at all,die la like this...'
i don't know it is just my problem or our problem.
i want to try again but my heart is no 'energy' to try.
haiz...what should i do?i don't willing want to hurt him!
break up? or try?
no wrong,he is a good guy, but what can i do if i have no feeling to him?
i just want to cut off the phone called from him,cause i felt bored when chat with him...
what he think it is funny, i think that is childish...
hmm....before and after really is a different person
maybe i should pray for he is not loving me...

recently...i am getting fatter than before...
everyday curry...because no food for me to choose even the vegetable also oily like hell!
i am trying to control my meal...hope i will reduce my weight...
now doing what also no mood...sienz~

new sem!

haiyo~i am back to the jail again!
u know what?i am fat jor~yyyyyyy??????
because of the food at there~OMG!
i dun wan!!!!i wan diet!!!!!!
hate myself become more fat even my darling said he dont mind~
but i am mind!
i dun wan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wan thin! thin! thin! thin!
please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fantastic nights for me♥

yeah~again~
i went to the club again~
this time was different because i expect more people will attend but seem like it didn't run like what i thought.
never mind...because i enjoyed too~
it is very hard to see Hannah join us to the club...
never think before she will going with us...up to 3 times!!!
i still remember what she said....
Me:'so,u think will u go again after your first time enter?'
she:'maybe not, cause i dislike noisy place.'
me:'hmm...,but if you like to dance,i think u will like this place.'
she:'see first,maybe yes.haha'
after the first time we entered to the club, she liked it...

Hmmmm...why do i talking nonsense at here?hahaha
skip------->
Friday night, when we arrived, there was a long 'line' of people waiting for entry...
and we had to show her our message and identity card because if our name not in the guess list, we cant enter...
well~luckily we got pass~
a lot of table had been reserved,so we just stand at the bar~
after that,we met Dyren Gan them...i asked them to join cause they had no place to 'stand'..haha
just drink for few cups of wine, we went to the dance floor~
yeah!dance like a crazy people~
there was few show girl stand on the DJ 'stage' [don't know what should it call]
and dance, damn sexy~and now you can imagine that how high were we in the dance floor~
after that, they took a bottle of tequila and feed to anyone who wanted.
i got drink some...
owh, 2 DJ from Thailand came to MOIS...
they are best because the mood at there never been low!
n the nx day~
gt 1 ah gua~step on the stage and rap~
OMG!!!u cant imagine that how high the mood was !!!!
actually~i duno how to explain what the situation at thr~but...
my bf came with us...but i dislike going clubbing with him...hahah
because i am like a person who had been under control...not fun la!!!
without him!i really like a crazy people!haha
i fall in love with CLUBBING!!!!

A SHY GAL DANCE WITH US~

CAMERA MAN-JOSEPH TEY [left hand site]

A GENTLE GUY WE MET,MR YEONG!
damn Gordon Ong cubit me!

before bed~

update my blog before bed~
recently kinda busy
busy for my report...
but not the main one~haha
i wana travel around....
actually it is not travel la~
juz a kind of SPENT money 'activity'
clubbing,shopping,singing~woooooo
nice what?!haha
enjoy my end of holidays~
with my lovely sister~
i do love them very much but pls forgive my bad-tempered~
and my darling...nvr angry him KO....haha
nice guy he is~really~
although some times he make me 'sweat'....
we chat a lot in the middle of the night~
coz i insomnia...actually using this word not really correct is it?
haiz~watever la~
i really miss u guys~
long time no gathering like that~
although i cant sleep well at night~
but i enjoyed these few days~
thanks~
especially JOJO~let us sleep in her room~
haha

进退两难

唉。。。又开始新的一段感情
有时觉得这决定是错的
因为感觉还不够，也或许是退热了
要我怎样啊？
我要的只是顺其自然
昨晚跟老老聊天
我的确是比较喜欢他
多过男友很多~
但总感觉我们不可能
他人在外国，我在马来西亚
他说他忙完就会回国
他会来找我
我该信吗？
他说要当我男友
但现在我有了男友
唉~或许只是骗我而已
刚跟男友讲完电话
他也很坦白的说喜欢我一段时间了
但因为他给不了我什么
所以他不想谈恋爱
令我觉得。。。我害了他！哈哈
管他的！不开始也都开始了
不接吻也都接吻了
死就死吧！
老老呢~等他回国再说~
╮(╯▽╰)╭
哈哈~上星期六玩得好疯！
我说过要在clubbing里接吻~
终于。。。哈哈哈
但很可惜的是，感觉不够。
如果换成是老老。。或许~哈哈哈哈
不要把我当成花心的人
因为，我真的喜欢老老比较久了~哈哈


此时此刻，我觉得。。。我的感情好乱啊！！！！
笑杂波！！！！

STOP making me blur~@.@

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BUSY DAYS~~~~

These few days,i am very busy!
busy anything????actually busy with my cousin wedding~
tired like a dog![borrow from Steven Hwa]haha
but i really enjoyed these days with my relative~
we chat in a room before sleep~
hmmm~i bankrupt dy~
1st day when we arrived at Penang Queensbay mall~
i spent RM190 for an eye gel~

ESTEE LAUDER

I bought this because it really had a good absorption!

hope it works!

i had a feeling of inferiority because i saw a lady who elder than me 12 years old looks younger than me.

especially the eyes!!!!

no dark circle no wrinkle~

the eyes are very pretty!

she recommend me to buy that eye gel!

i had consider for long time at there and finally,i had gave it a tried!

after that,my cousin wife came to meet us then we went to use our dinner.

then we went back to rest.

we depart to KL early in the morning and used our breakfast at IPOH.

after we meet my cousin at KL,we went shopping at MIDVALLEY.

weekend,the ppl at thr were damn horrible! like all ppl who live in KL came to Midvalley.

traffic jam!

i din bought anythg at thr.

the next day~i follow my cousin for whole morning coz...i am a bride-maid.

very mahuan~haha

after they finished ceremony,i followed my aunt to use my lunch then back to home stay.

i had no chance to rest coz i nid to prepare for the wedding dinner in the evening.

it took me long time...

the food were delicious and i ate too much~haha

FULL!!!!

TRUE OR FALSE?

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神经错乱@.@

recently....
我真的快疯了！！！！！
一大堆做不完的账单
单单是sales就满一个大箱子了~
天啊~还有3天，我才能脱离苦海！！！
不过两星期后又要自己跳入火坑
因为老板开口要求了~
去做咯，要不然在家做么？哈哈哈哈
老板不愧是老板，我做的东西很多疑问，
我自己没发现，但老板用半小时就找出来
真是丢脸~~~唉~~~~
昨晚老板叫我改东西
结果我的脑像沾了浆糊似的
不能转动！！！L.A.G...........或 SYSTEM ERROR.......
哈哈哈哈哈
你看你看，真的‘笑’了！！！！

其实，我不是不想谈恋爱
因为遇不到对感觉的
所以要拒绝他们的邀约
拒绝太多次，又paiseh pula
不是说没相处过所以可能以后会喜欢对方
我的是，第一个感觉不对，我就不会给机会
所以，相处是不可能的。。。。
每天都要想不同的理由拒绝，我累啊~~~~哈哈哈
真是狗屁够力！

期待6月~要去疯狂咯~~~哈哈哈哈
我要买一双高跟鞋和包鞋。。。
不要让我花太多钱，pls~~~~
希望全部人都能去！
好久没跟你摇了啊，何柳烨！！！！

好久没那么做了。。。

今天‘一大清早’，被婉柔的信息和柔柔的电话吵醒
说今晚喝茶~
下午，突然接到一位重量级的飞机王来电说喝茶！
当然on咯，因为早上答应婉柔了嘛~
说好8点，飞机王-----陈立川7点多就来载我了。
问我要去哪儿，我说港口
结果他说，不要啦~
那你还问我干嘛叻？
结果吃着东西时，
不懂如何说起去jitra看戏
然后就打去jitra mall的戏院问时间
原本要看FAST AND FURIOUS 5的
戏票全卖光了
就换THOR咯
然后结账，直接飚去jitra~
我是在去着时通知我妈妈的
去到那边，买了戏票，才知道是3D版的
看到我头晕晕。。。。
耳朵也很痛~~~
那部戏很不错啦~
值得一看。
在这段时间里闹了很多笑话。。。
谢谢你啊飞机王！

哇哇哇！！！

好久没那么迟睡了咯！！！
今晚就是不想睡！
为了找一件适合的伴娘裙。。。
唉~~~我很讨厌迟睡的其实。。
但我就是不想睡。。。
最近有点想他。。。
应该是因为大姨妈要来了
每次都是这样的
效剥囖！
这次并没什么集会到
个人忙各人的
像个大忙人。。。
最近工作好累，压力很大
今早发现了discount allowed 出了问题
解决方法是。。。。从头改到尾。
做了一天还改不完。。。
拿刀来杀了我算了吧！
COME ON!
今天也是practical最后一天
但却是我倒数最后30天。。。
还有一个月！
要忍啊！要不然以后怎样啊？？！
说真的，我并不讨厌‘她’
只不过不喜欢‘她’的小动作
什么东东都一五一十的告诉老板
我最喜欢的就是‘她’出去找顾客时
就是我relax的时间，最多只有15分钟。。。
每次迟放工补回了啦~哈哈哈
我真的脸皮厚hor？
这样还敢写出来。。。
没拉。。。只是写爽罢了~
要睡了。。。
祝3位小姐的旅程愉快~小心哦~~~

致：何小姐

刚刚读完你的blog~
我希望我不是其中一个
我有时很抱怨你很少陪我们
有时很生气
你有些话说的很矛盾
但后来抱怨完后
什么feeling都没了~
哈哈哈
希望你能够好好的休息吧~
已经很久没像以前那样疯狂了~哈哈
我不希望我们会给你压力
若说当一个朋友都会给压力的话
那姐妹呢？
我把你当成我的姐妹
而不是朋友而已
有时候不敢坦白，因为我害怕吵架
真的~
曾经跟你和啊马吵架
那种感觉真的他妈的不爽
因为最好的朋友都不理不睬
最了解我的人都不理我
那种感觉真的难受
所以我喜欢以抱怨的方式来舒缓不舒服的心情
之前我的友谊处理的一塌糊涂
现在了解了
我只会对好朋友付出真心
因为我试过别人糟蹋我的真心的感觉
尤其是我现在读的学校里
真心换回来的都是伤害
我的比你还惨
表面上跟私底下的动作完全是两回事
叫一大堆人来boycott你，你试过吗？
到后来学会了，跟他们一样。。。虚伪。
但对你们，还是我最原始的一面。。。
你是我永远的姐妹。。。❤

i made it!!!opps~i did it!!!

FINALLY...
yes, finally,we did it!
actually i am very tired...
we should buy the ingredients together,
but my mother bought all [almost all]...haha
really paiseh with my mum la~
then, about the preparation....
i want to prepare by myself...
but my mum said to me:i do la, cant see u all slow motion...'
walao eh~then keep saying me mahuan...
asked her bought this n that..
thanks mum~
because of this gathering...
i did a lot of things but...i forgot what i did....haha
last night , was a enjoyable night.
birthday celebration of two pretty~
but all ran out of timing...
my mum switch off the light before i reach there...
surprise did not looks like surprise...
haha...but the important is...we were enjoyed!!!
last night hot topics were 'PENANG RAPID' and 'PANGSAI POST IN TOILET'
haha, we were always imaging a lot of weird things~
good what! next time maybe will be a good idea~haha

cute leh??haha MR DOMO！

MISS HIM A LOT!!!!!!!

I MISS HIM.
I MISS HIM..
I MISS HIM...

I MISS HIM....

I MISS HIM.....

I MISS HIM......

I MISS HIM......!

I MISS HIM......!!

aiyo, I am really fxxking missing him la~~~

beh tong liao~

want to see him, kiss him, hug him~

play with him!!!

but i cant, there is a  far distance between he and me~y????

y the god so cruel~~~

please~~~let me see him~i want him~~~

since last Monday i saw him,i cant stop thinking about him~

he asked me to sleep at hotel to wait him back,

he pushed me on the bed,

asked me close my eyes~

but i broke my promise,

i back  home after he went out with his family...

when he returned to hotel but couldn't find me,

he keep crying and asking his grandmum + mum~

haiz~~~my heart fulled of pain because i lied to him~

sorry ya~my little GORDON~

i love when you look into my eyes and call me with your gentle and soft voice...

OMG!you are extremely cute!!!!!

his sister also cute la~~~

i am dying on their hands~~~

actually i am not dare to close with the little cute sister because i scare she will cry~~~

GORDON told his mum:'我要跟姐姐回家哈。"

then I said:' 等下你会哭的咯。"

you know what his answered?

he said:'我不会哭的'{i asked him to tell his mum too}

after i hold him went down stairs~

chit-chat with him~haha

i sent him to his mum and wana go back

he chase me and don't let me go back even when he was drinking his milk~

i really dying on his small n cute hands~~~

opps~actually, his eyes and voice were the most powerful to me~haha

疯狂！！！

哇哇哇！20岁了咯
其实还差2个月多~哈哈
昨晚去了mois狂欢！
第一次在mois的dance floor跳了1个多小时没有停到！
烨，不是不要约你，而是临时的。哈哈
多么想你去，那么就有人陪我high！哈哈哈
昨晚呢。。。
骗了我老爸老妈~
说去吉打看戏 【弟，看到的话不要说出去呐！】
其实是去槟城
10点开车，11点多到，然后3点多从mois出来，回到家5点半
这次是亿娴约的，因为泉中【不懂是不是这样写叻】硬是要她去
所以他就拖我去
原本没得去了，但我想跳舞想了很久啊！
硬是求老爸让我去--吉打看戏！哈哈哈哈
这次去的人全都不熟的
女生只有我，娴，蜜仪
男生有思靖，泉中，文川，志义，立斌，顺发，劲铨，还有一个不认识的名叫豪的男生
他的脸超像振阳的！！
原本是拉蜜仪一起跳的，结果他说他爱睡，就没跳了，
在喝酒的位子上很闷
一直拉娴陪我跳，结果他却叫泉中带我去=.=#
他带我过去找其他在dance floor的朋友
结果我一个女生跟很多个男生一起跳
当然是个跳个的~
不懂是哪一位先生
退后退到我去撞dj的台。。。
跳了很久一下
泉中又跑回来跳舞
去了clubbing+disco那么多次
erm。。。其实不是说很多次啦，哈哈哈
这是第一次被男生抱着跳舞。。。
刚刚开始时有点不习惯，但到后来也没想那么多
不过被抱着跳舞的感觉蛮不错的
被女子抱的感觉不一样是因为高度问题吧。。。哈哈哈
烨，下次记得穿高跟鞋
我要你抱着我跳舞！
哈哈哈哈哈
有一点很好笑的
在车上时
听到志义说，叫劲铨抱我跳舞的
但劲铨不要，因为我不美！哈哈哈哈
志义说，要嫌人之前照一下镜子！哈哈哈哈
在车上有点想大笑的感觉！
其实谁来抱都没关系
只不过是跳舞而已嘛~
但我只是想不到他会抱着我跳
哈哈哈哈哈
决定了！
烨，你下一次记得穿高跟鞋！！！哈哈哈哈

压抑着。。。

其实我是真的快乐吗？
有时候，我很快乐
有时候，当某些我不知道的事让我知道的时候
有时候，万万没想到的事情发生的时候
我是不是在压抑着我自己
装作什么事都没有
然后在wall post乱写
装作看开
我记得某位朋友说过
他用睡觉来掩饰，装作不知道
或许我该学他
看开看开看开！
嘴上说看开
心里还是紧闭着！
好想找个人靠一靠
在他怀里哭一哭
弱！！！
我真的变了
自私，脾气暴躁，不理别人的感受
我是个大烂人

唯有在跟某个人谈天时才不会想起不愉快的事
因为他很色！
色到我一直要转移话题
努力的转移，结果就忘了不愉快的事
哈哈哈

某些事，真的不知道比知道好
知道后痛苦，伤心的只会是你。
那种感觉，真的。。。呕死！！！
我要发泄！！！大骂出口！！
TMD!MCB!MPK!KNS!LC!

我快乐吗。。。

可爱吧？？哈哈哈

老实说
我也不清楚
每个星期六都出来喝茶
有时是临时叫的~哈哈
最近没想之前那么想他了
真的！
我现在脑子里想的都是。。。钱！
明年计划去旅行
也告诉我们的导游----大少！嘻嘻
一位帅哥。。。
要努力存钱啊！！
要不然去不成了
但是我花的比赚的还多！
惨~~~~~
现在的我其实蛮不错的
就像他所说的
什么都别想
虽然偶尔想他，
但也没有那么痛了
下星期六要做火锅~
叫了姐妹们~可惜大肥不在这里
哈哈~

某天突然想到他，就sms问他有没有回来
在发信息给他时，我很紧张
紧张个屁啊~傻的！哈哈哈
我又顺便约他来一起吃
但他的反应很冷淡
说他是看大姐的安排
算了~不想来我也不能怎样~
我只是想做个聚会罢了~
反正也不缺你一个~

我总于把心结打开，
心舒服多了
在这里真的想跟你说
朋友，对不起
原谅我以前的幼稚。

最近工作很忙
但我每天都偷懒~
用iphone上网！哈哈哈哈哈
没办法，太爱睡了
我有时还偷偷的玩angry bird叻~
会不会太过分了我？
哈哈哈哈
要跟MR OOI 和MS LIM说声抱歉~
因为我整天偷懒。。。
只要我不爱谁时
我就不会玩电话，真的！
希望我能改过~
阿弥陀佛~~~~

想短期出家
改改运或弥补什么都好。
有机会，我一定会的！

我快变秃头了~~~T^T

啊~~~~~~
怕怕！！！！！！
我真的快变秃头了
头发严重脱落。。。。
年纪轻轻就。。。。
天啊~~~我难以接受！！！！
之前爱美，一直染发。。。
结果。。。
命运啊~~~~
伤心死我！！！我不要变秃头！！！！！
不要啊！！！！！！！
不懂是不是压力问题。。。
之前工作压力很大一下的。。。
难道这样就落发？？？
天啊~我甘愿变成一个傻瓜~
至少没压力！！！！
唉~~~~
老了老了。。。。

回到自我！

最近工作压力很大
头脑变得胡思乱想
想他，想达令，想猪肉圆，想猪嫂，想肥腿~
哈哈哈哈
你们都猜得到是谁吧？
原来我到现在还放不下他
女人果然是女人，
拖拖拉拉
我依然还爱着他
我在这里承认！
不过这一天一定会过去的
从现在开始我不要想那么多
自己找来的痛~哈哈

至于达令呢~哈哈
每天还是讲一些seber话
跟他聊天有时会很爆笑！
有时很想打他。。。哈哈哈哈

猪肉圆
想你！！！！
想念我们一起‘游荡’~
一有空就出来~哈哈哈
想念一起踏脚车去吃somtam~

猪嫂
想你！！！！
想念我们每个星期三下午都讲电话的日子~
想念我们‘起笑’的时候

肥腿
虽然最近时常都有见面
但还是
想你！！！！
想念以前‘狂想症’的时候
想念一起坐125的时候~

我不像以前那么潇洒，因为‘爱’，我变得很不一样
胡思乱想，自暴自弃
不过现在我要从新！
不做一些幼稚的东西~
学着不怨恨别人
学着忍耐
学着不抱怨
学着不再悲观
学着快乐
我要变回原来那个十分seber！无聊没烦恼的我！！！

EXPLODE!!!!!!!!

我快发疯了
衰事一单接一单
真的你他妈的！！！！
MCB！！！！
死马来X！
你是第一天驾车啊？
停在人家的屋外就算了，
还有停到这样‘美’
撞到一点就说cat balik
我很想回你！
maicibai！cat lan ar,sikit pun nak cat!
害我爸赔150，
头头还要200的！
我还中念一整天！
如果能的话，我不想驾车了。
我甘愿驾摩托，骑脚踏车。
被撞也不是损失财物。
每个人都会问你有事吗？
只有你们会问，车有事吗？
我说我赔，你却说你一个月薪水多少？千多块啊？
讲一下也不能，脾气暴躁到死。
我不想会任何一句，因为我一定会骂出口！
我也是跟爸学的脾气。
看这个blog的人请不要问我发生什么事！
我现在很火大！
心情特别差，只想一个人！
对于父母，我只能道歉，我不能控制自己的脾气。
说真的，我要的是你们的关心，而不是因为赔钱而骂我。
如果真的是钱的问题，那我宁可驾摩托，踏脚车，甚至走路。。。

这一切又能怪谁，错在我，我却不承认
硬是推到别人身上。
我不要这样子的我
为什么会这样
要怎样才改的掉。。。
我真的爆发了！

时间到了。。。

之前写过一篇‘time is needed’
对，现在时间到了。
我很犯贱，一次又一次的去找他，不肯放手
原因很简单，因为我还爱着他。
他终于说出口，他喜欢她。
我只能告诉他，她不会选你，因为她已经有了男友，而你是个什么都没有的人
我想起我们的一切一切。
你从不对我温柔，但你很体贴。
你对他很温柔，也很体贴，
但我知道那不是真的你。
或许在他人眼里，我还在欺骗自己。
现在的我并没有，我只是在坦诚我爱的是你。
时间已到了，我累了，伤了，
执着的手终于开始松了，
是不是想开了？或许。。。
我最近一直找你吵架因为我想让你骂我
好让我死心，你叫我不要再叫你dear。。。
这一点对我来说有点难，因为习惯了。
我不曾叫过你的名字，所以同样的，我不能习惯不叫你dear
最好的方法是不找你，我就不会这样叫你。
在爱情里的人都是笨的，明知道他在骗你
你还是要进去，不肯放手。
现在的我终于想通了，我有一班的姐妹为我心疼
为什么我还要一个不会为我心疼的人来伤我呢？
呵呵。。。我的妹妹。。。真的谢谢你。
我会放下他，但不会忘了他，因为他教会了我很多东西
在这段爱情里成长了不少
是你的就是你的，不是你的就不是你的
如今，他已经不再属于我的
我要把它丢掉，所谓：‘旧的不去，新的不来’
哈哈哈，我要快乐！！！

my LEGs almost broken liao.....

hoho....the story began like this...
once upon a time............stop!!!!
sot jor,haha~
last weekend went for 'walk walk', den today working.
made me tired like a hell!
erm, i had a nice memoriesssss with all of my sisters and darling, hoho~
appreciate them la~
on the 1st day, we depart early in d morning...
after tat shopping...walao eh!!!i spent almost half of my pocket money on the 1st day~
bought sum cloths and cosmetic~
the most satisfied thing i had bought is......my new WALLET!!!!!
finally, i found u~

it looks like male wallet isn't it?

haha, actually it is unisex de, i had planned to buy for sum1 too,

but my sister told me dun waste money on him, so i din buy lo~

hmmm....we shopping vf Wanjo , after tat she fetch us back to JOJO's house....

bath den went out again...

according to them, i am the most slow among them, 

haiz...u tot i wan meh?

i nid more time to wash my body becoz my body surface more bigger than yours ma...

after that we go to Batu Feringgi, fetch Hooi bac to her dear home.

before that, we went to sea side restaurant， they had ordered sum beers but i din order anythg.

my stomach was uncomfortable....

so i kept  on closing my mouth...[silent]haha

we back home after that.

let me show u my sister LONG+ WHITE LEGS~

LONG leh?haha~her ambition WAS stewardess, but unfortunately, 

she met an accident last year, her leg got a big scar...

hope she wont give up for that.

next day, we went to the same place against...

we went to SEOUL GARDEN use our lunch...

i love the black pepper flavor and coffee flavor...

damn nice la d taste!!!!

den we went walk walk again,haha~

planned to sing K, but fulled of ppl...

nvm~we went for movie pula ,

watched 'what women want'

a pig sat beside of me slept during the movie on showing.

this movie not so nice la, but sum of the that really showed wat men want...haha

den we back home by taxi...it was heavy raining on the way we back...

asked my darling hang out vf us, haha...and a mystery guy came for gave sum1 flowers~

haha, after tat~no place to go,

so we went to 1st avenue,sing K...

spent a lot of money against~haha

thx my sister sang a song called' 第二次分手‘

felt like wana cry...the song really suit to me...haha

sum1 drunk but still wan to follow us.

after that i asked my darling fetch us at jojo hs...

we went to McD. ate our breakfast...haha...in the morning 4 a.m

then sat at sea side, the wind blowing is smelly la~yiak!

went to Gurney, coz sum of us wan pang sai...

we were lying at Gurney plaza untill 6 sumthg juz back to jojo hs.

bathing, packing our cloths, after that asked my darling fetch them to jetty.

tis nite, he did a lot of funny thgs, made us keep laughing~haha

den, he sent me back to jojo hs...

damn tired~slept until jojo step in her room,i juz wake up.

i continue sleeping coz my eyes cant open~haha

afternoon, Ah Zhong fetched us went to straight quay to use our lunch.

walked into a restaurant called 'Hisago', high class la~the food damn expensive~

tis was d food i ordered.

damn damn damn NICE!!!!!!

cant imaging that the taste would be like that!

after lunch, we went to 1st avenue to watch movie...

'Mr & Mrs Incredible'

funny movie~hahaa~~~

that Jojo keep hugging me~geli nia!!!

after that~i back to Kangar vf Zhong.

he drove about 140-170km/hr on d high way~

but i still can sleep~haha

we stopped at kedah to use our dinner~

a simple noodles + wan tan + cha shao + vegetables.

waw! against~it made me surprise!

d cha shao very very delicious la!!!

2 ppl ate almost RM20++.

but it is worth to be!

reach home about 10pm....

my bone almost broken liao~haha

morning~

GUD morning my fren~
very hard to believe i can wake up so early leh~
sumore today is weekend!hoho
I woke up at 7am actually, slept for 12 hrs dy~
now, feel sleepy pula~haha
last nite sms vf my sister, bout very sory coz i was sleeping tat time.
so cant chat with u. congratulation ya~
my sis met her BF's parents~
all she worried about did not happen~
erm~ nx time u can go his hs ~
u can drink ur favorite soup liao~

talk bout me,tis few days miss him a lot.
miss a guy tat i loved but no worth i do so...
but i really wonder y i still keep on doing tat thg...
nevermind la...
i will forget him soon~
no, not forget...
juz put down everythg i care about him..
time....please help me ya~
i know u r d best~hihi
sot jor!

TimE iS nEEdeD

Thx my dear fren.
u r really know me well.
like wat u said, I am woman[ lady more suit i think],haha
i am stubborn with the one i love even he was changing.
I jealous the girl, i wont deny it.
she is so lucky. but wat i wana say at here is i just want to love him.
but seem like i used  the wrong way n made all of us unhappy
i am suffer on this. he was the first i loved .
i know u will say, u r still young, u will meet a better guy next time.
i agree but now, i just want to love him.
sorry for make u worry about me,
i know i am lying myself and damn stupid.
i asked him , who i am for u?
he told me, u r my very best fren.
on tat moment, i heard my heart 'bleeding'...
i know it is the time i give up on him.
i have promise myself, if sumday i am still a single, n he wana recover bac with me
i will accept if tat moment i still love him.
beside tat, i will reject or ignore.
after i hd cried for last whole nite, my heart feeling better now.
but tis morning, my eyes damn pain la! ish~~~~
shouldn't cry de~how stupid i was.
fool by him. but i willing accept all.
i need some time, n tis time, i cant repeat again.
that y i did everything he dislike to make him hate me,
den we wont hv any relationship in future.
am i right?making him hate me, but it will be fine soon.
i will back to the happy 'lady' soon!
wait for me my sun~i dislike raining day!
^^

HEart BroKeN

tis year really make me sad....

a lot of  bad news from him...

ya,he was inside the above pictures~

i met him since i was secondary school.

i did not know him even we were in the same school for 2 years and more.

i knew this guy since i joined HIP HOP CLUB.

it was meaningful for me.

in these 20 years i live ,he was the one went inside my heart.

how sweet he was when we were couple~

he did everythg for me but sumtym he really sui ~

these were not effected at all.

sumtym, he was sweet, sumtym, he was hurting  me.

but i do love him more than i can say.

but this made my heart broken.

at his house, we r still same like b4.

but when we go outside, we r just friend.

since 2 july 2010 we broke up, we nvr cover back even he was chasing me back.

but now, it is almost half year past. he fall in love with another girl.

the girl dy hd bf, but she still have an ambiguous relationship with my lovely ex-bf.

he  deny tis in front of me.

but when i saw his hp, the truth was hurting me.

i cant stop think about this~

why it would happened?

this is the end of waiting for me to back to him.

when i leave, he said 'i will waiting for u.'

i din trust wat he said.

but now, when i turned back, i saw his heart had another girl.

tis is fake...

is time to let u go although i love u.

i am really very very very love u.

it cant be describe by words.

hope u will remember me in your future

QYP...

CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!

hoho~time past very fast than i tot leh~
now ady 20 years old!!!wth!!!!
but tis cny really unforgetable~
go shooting at k.p, watch 3 movies continuously~~
lie a little cute boy--Gordon ~~~really bad hor tat ho liu yee~
hihihihi~~~~
well~i plan to have a gathering but due to some of them cant attend, so i have to cancel it~~
but luckily the SON OF GOD asked we came out b4 cny~
erm~let me start vf photo shooting la~
actually tat day i din mean go to k.p de, i juz brought my bro's camera to practice~
den Yee suggest we go shooting today~den we were searching for the place,
we found a place not bad for photo shooting~
at first, they all really making me 87 coz paiseh,especially for d red cloths 1~
but after that~their pattern all came out~haha
until sum1 shoes 'flying'~haha
capture until d camera was low battery we juz went bac~
for d nite, we went to Yee's hs~
using her laptop to search sum info we nid~
i heard tat a 'stupid' exchange her new hp to a old model 1~
unworthy la~d nx day~we go tat stupid hs~den went to sing K~ VIP ROOM for 3 person only~
after tat went to ma ex bf hs~
i saw his sister baby~cute lo~~~
her eyes damn big n she will smile when she c her mum~
her bro oso cute~ he really believed tat we will fetch him to kfc~ haha
nx day~early in d morning~we went to JITRA MALL watch movies~
tis is d 1st time~
really long time no watch liao,but now watch 3 movies continuously~
walao eh~~~~~
but all movies very nice la...
funny + touch....
hmmm....~
tat all la~haha

那么爱吗？

刚刚浏览过很多人的blog
我只能说。。。无言。。。
才刚才一起不到半年，就爱得很深
但事实上才跟前任男友分手不久
前任男友也是‘深爱’之一
这么快就放得下吗？
才刚开始在一起就爱对方
【不针对任何人，不过要对号入座的我也不介意】
不明白为什么可以在自己的blog大声的说xxx，520
那真的是爱吗？
也许你们会说，不喜欢的话就别看啦！
但，人就是很犯贱的咯~
相信你也一样。。。
我不是羡慕，更不是妒忌
只是很好奇你们所谓的‘爱’是什么？
是不是。。。
‘今天我很爱我的男友，明天我们分手了，我哭得很伤心
一个月后遇见另一个他，跟他在一起
我们每天都在一起，很开心，很幸福，我很爱你，xxx’
然后宝贝老公这样叫呢？
我很想知道这是爱吗？
如果是的话，为什么我的不一样呢？
没错，blog是你们自己的东西
但我还是想说。。。
有些人的blog有点令我汗颜。。
跟日记没分别，描述当天的情景
然后重头到尾宝贝xx的。。
【再次申明，没针对任何人，要对号入座的就请】
还有更糟糕的，但不想说，因为很多人都是这样的。
要怎么想随便你们，我只是好奇。。。
原来一个人可以很轻易地爱上一个人。。。

HOHO~~~

Chinese new year is coming now~
but i does not have any feel~
all still like nothing going to happen~
y har?
we do celebrate it, and the way is...giving others ang pao...
boring la...i am missing before~
it was very bustling with noise and exited~
but now~everyone seem like nothing special~
sien~~~~
cny gathering was cancel because Melchor do not come back to chuping...
his parents will be in KL during CNY~
haiz~i have to change my plan~i miss my old friend?
how are you?hihi

recently talking about 'him'
[love is blind]
i am totally agree with it!!!
when i love him, i love his all even it is a shortcoming...
but since i started my internship,
i found that he have a lot of things that i can not accept~
he betray me [passed jor]
he lying to me[ forgive him]
he is sell fish [call me or find me when he want,after that i am nothing]
haiz~do not want to talk about him~
that all i want to say~

槟城之旅~

嗯嗯~~~1月22日去槟城shopping~
早上很早就起床了~到北海后就搭渡轮前往目的地~

【拍照不曾正常过】

去到那边因为某只猪还没醒，只好叫另一位小姐和先生来载我们到Gurney~

那位先生请我们吃了一餐~

吃到要完了才想到忘记拍照~

是不是流口水了叻？哈哈

吃完后就shopping咯~下午4点多前往peranggin mall【不懂是不是这样写】

走到我脚快断了！！！

到戏院里去看【笑着回家】
不错看一下~但我旁边的猪睡到很爽。。。
看完戏就赶回家~冲凉换衣。。。准备去。。。呵呵呵~

我眼睛好怪哦~
我和猪去逛了一圈，然后在舞池里跳舞。。。
疯狂！！！！哈哈哈哈。。。
好喜欢这种感觉！！！！
但~最后吐了~我的脚因为被我一天不停的折磨，痛到~~~~
隔天12点多才起床~很累。。。
惠带我们到[CLINIC CAFE]吃东西。。。
东西是不错啦，很大分量，但不对我胃口。。。哈哈

哈哈，食物方面我懒惰post了。。。post一些有趣的~~
就这样。。。那只猪还带人走错路~够力~
又来一个重色的~脑里只记得他的亲亲男友~
害我这个单身的寂寞到死~
呵呵呵

人往前走，我往后退

据小小叮当说，我最近一直说回以前。。
不懂为什么叻~
真想挖开我的脑看看里面装的是什么？
想了很久，终于知道为什么了
因为我还在活在过去里。。。
真是的，现在的生活除了做工，还是做工~
闷到爆，一直想起以前一起逃课，在form 4，5blok做的疯狂事~
form 2 你还在众人面前摸我的胸部~哈哈哈哈
还有~原来你高兴认识到我是因为你回来不会闷罢了哦？
伤心！！！！
对我来说次序应该是这样
做一下分析哈~
厚佬乙：还好→好→好→不好→还好→还好→很好→很好→姐妹♥
猪嫂： 还好→还好→不是很好→还好→好→很好→很好→姐妹♥
B画家： 好还→好还→好→不是很好→还好→好→好→很好→姐妹♥
小小叮当~你真的伤了我的心/(ㄒoㄒ)/~~

╭︿︿︿╮
{/ o  o /}
 ( (oo) )
  ︶ ︶︶
送你一只猪~哈哈
现在生活真的闷到爆~一个好处是我可以上网。
在poli里。每天都要防小人~谁要对号入座的就请坐吧~
说来说去，又玩不起~
遇到同类时却幼稚到像3岁小孩子。
还是跟死党最好！
▶以下是实话实说【憋在心里很久了】：◀
烨-你不要每次回来都要去吃东西啦~
我减肥减到很辛苦叻~不懂为什么，跟你们出去，我一定要花很多钱~无奈(╯﹏╰）
beh-讲话的速度麻烦快一点。。。哈哈哈
jojo-跟我讲华语时不要用槟城腔，听了我有点想打人。。。哈哈哈哈
不过这次回来听了不像之前酱，这次你用perlis腔，不错~哈哈
■完毕■
你们有什么不满的直接告诉我~我会改的~
最近没人跟我吵架，害我不知从何改起~
快来骂我吧！！！！！(╯﹏╰)b

知心朋友=知己

致：B画家，猪嫂，厚佬乙
我有很多朋友
好朋友也有几位
但知己只有3位。
虽然我不懂你们把不把我当知己，
但我还是一样的把你们当知己看待。
去哪里，第一时间一定想到你们，
不管走到哪里都会想说，如果你们都有在那该多好啊！
只有你们知道我的全部秘密，
知道我在想什么，什么情况之下都会帮我。。
真的谢谢你们。。。
我想说的是，有些人，即使认识的再久，
再亲，再熟，不是知己就不是知己。。。
知己，就算不常联络，但见面时还是知道他第一时间在想什么
知道他话里的另一个含义。
当然，有时候还是会有点小吵架，但过后依然一样好
去到那里，有你们在，我都很快乐~
无话不说，有话直说，不拐弯抹角，扭扭捏捏。。。
有时候甚至还没说出口就知道对方要说些什么。。。
好久没有一起大聊特聊了！
新年是唯一的机会，难得全部人都回来，不聚一聚怎么行呢？哈哈
以上的3位知己，了解我的人都会知道是谁。。。

从前从前

今天工作是晃神了，想起很多中学生活所发生的事~
跟姐妹吵架，旷课，爬篱笆
全部人一起赌博，躲在班里不去周会，
一大班人早上不去上课，去玩水。。。
叫某某人把摩托开到180km/hr，没戴帽子中警察追。。。
多么爽！跟柳烨吵过架，现在变好姐妹，
跟【b画家】也超过，现在也是好姐妹。。。
跟jojo嘛~忘了有没有吵。。。
哈哈
我好想念以前的生活。。。
但人不能活在过去。。。
只能向前走，我永远都不会把那些快乐的回忆忘掉。
除非我永久失忆~
好想念2010年去mois庆祝生日！
全部人都玩疯了。。。
我吐了3次~哈哈哈
吐完了又继续摇~
坐在地上也不管有没有走光。。。
朋友们，我们何时还有机会再一起疯狂呢？
我好想以前全部人都在的时刻~
那时的我真的很开心！
现在我一个人面对着电脑。。。唉。。。
当你们回来时，不管多累，我都会出来。。
不管晚上我多迟睡，你们早上叫我出来我都一定会出的。。。
我想珍惜每一分每一秒。。。下一刻会发生什么是谁都不知道。
所以，我只在乎我在乎的！
关于家庭。。。
我爸妈其实很喜欢旅行，但旅行开销很大，对于我家庭来说，
那时奢侈。。。我好想在这时候拿出一笔钱给父母，让他们去旅行。
我告诉妈，‘你们现在不去，要等到什么时候才去呢？’
妈说‘等你们长大出来工作再给我们钱去旅行吧~’
我听了其实很心疼，我很爱乱花钱，虽然有存，但很少罢了。。。
父母不曾抱怨他们多么累，我却对他们很不客气。。
认为这是理所当然的，对男友却好得不得了。。。
对不起啊。。。我会改我的脾气的，我已经长大了~
等我存够钱就带你们去旅行好吗？
其实我知道你们很疼我，我要什么你们都会给，
嘴巴上说说很贵，但还是给我钱买。。。
现在回想起来，我真的不是个好孩子。。。
对不起。。。
我爱你们，爸爸，妈妈~